AC and ... i dunno

[bluestareyed]

So, im debating skipping Anthrocon this year.

its not that i cant afford it... I can.
Its not that i have no way to get to Pittsburgh...I do.

what i dont have is two things that i think i kinda need to actually attend.


one: motivation. I have spent some time away from home, doing fun things, but i really dont like being away from home for long, or away from kyle for very long. not at the moment anyway. a good deal of this is my own depression that i still havent kicked from the reverse culture shock of coming back to the states. I spent 4 months away from him, and now a few days seems like too much. Also, because of the change in my marital status, there will be certain things that people will expect of me that im really not into anymore. maybe eventually i will get back to that, but unless things change i am going to respect the wishes of my spouse whom i love dearly over immediate and casual urges with people whom i will probably never hook up with ever again. That and there is ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS con drama, and im not sure i have the fucking energy. Also, the ideas that seem to have been behind the Open Source Boob Project and the probability that it will be occurring around me and i will have to encounter it also saps my desire to be there. I normally, and most of you know this, have no problem being ogled or even groped at a con, i love the attention, but the whole attitude of OSBP makes me want to wear a big sign saying "You touch does not validate my existence" or "i am not here for your pleasure." up until now i did it because I wanted to. The attitude of entitlement makes me not want to anymore.



two: crash space. or rather, my lack thereof.

im still debating going, and if anyone has any suggestions, im all ears

Comments

[sontock.livejournal.com]

too bad you hadn't posted this sooner, I would have gladly given the room WE had reserved to you :\ But I called and canceled the reservations on Friday, ah well.

[bluestareyed.livejournal.com]

ARGH! DX

thats what i get for procrastinating

[maikujaku.livejournal.com]

If you do go I'll be welcoming you with a big hug, if not, you know I'll miss you Dori

[bluestareyed.livejournal.com]

i think imma try and make it...

the more i think about it the more i think i may regret missing it.

[nightangel422.livejournal.com]

You know me, setno and draconum, not to mention Devil pony and Kyr, are all going to miss you at con. You know if I didnt already have three people in my room id have no problem with you staying with us..but you know how you and me are...four people in one king room..we'd kill each other in..like a second. :/

[bluestareyed.livejournal.com]

i dunno, im almost willing to make that effort, if you wouldnt mind. you know i pack light and that i can keep myself out of the hair.

[giza.livejournal.com]

> but the whole attitude of OSBP makes me want to wear a big sign
> saying "You touch does not validate my existence"

I'd like to think that our Standards of Conduct (http://www.anthrocon.org/rules-conduct) pretty much convey that already.

If an attendee still doesn't understand, our security team will be happy to explain it to them. :-)

[bluestareyed.livejournal.com]

you know, that actually does make me feel a ton better about this. thank you, i mean that :)